Sunday, December 29, 2013

Youngsters

From left: JS Pau, me(Elisa Jean), Emily Pau, Eric Pau, Sharon Pau

Hello everyone. I've not been posting anything since my last post. My last post was about God's love towards his creation, especially mens. It's not enough for a post to talk about how God loves us. So, I'm now continuing discover how He loves me. And I want you to discover it too! If you're reading my blog, you may know my character and my English level as well. Besides, please, please, let your heart be open, so that God can send you His love. And please share to me the love of Him on you.

This post gonna be pretty interesting post (I feel like). I want to tell you something about the youngsters. So, I myself is aged 16 this year(2013), next year gonna turns 17. I feel like I'm old and young. I wish I'm still studying in primary school, but the condition tells me that I'm no longer young. The cool thing about old is that you're old. The cool thing about young is that you're young. Well, there is nothing different between young and old, except the physical level. 

When I was young, I thought about the people at the age of 13-20. I thought they liked to have relationships with someone and that was what their life were about. And now, I'm within this age. I feel like I'm a total nerd and a dern ( spell the word descending). And that's not about relationships. I want to say, I'm too old to being young. Got it? Yes, there are people who love having relationship in my form. There are plenty of them. So what to do? I pray for them as they won't waste their time doing something that cannot last forever. 

Here is one short story that I really want to tell you! When I was going back to Bintulu, I went to my uncle's ping pong training place. I went there for fun ( that was my first time playing ping pong). I went there with my niece and nephew. Then I met a boy, a ten year old boy. He knows how to play well in ping pong and he teached me. Then he said something. I didn't hear it clearly, but I can tell you, it's about a question of relationship. Then, I asked him to ask again. He refused. I didn't mind at all. Because I know how well about how children look at the youngsters. I was that kind of child before. 

Nevermind, I let it past. After that I recalled about youngsters that I'd met before. I thought about how they behave. And now I'm on travelling. I watched too many people who were so OPEN. 

Next year is gonna be a cool year. I'll be studying like a total nerd, playing music like a poor and doing excercise like a fattie. Oh yea! And I'll be learning God's words like a super duper stupid person (I mean the glory is to God, and I'm nothing without God). 

I may not be playing games ( though I don't really play game), facebooking, instagraming. 1st of January will be my last day for these? Haha. I don't know. May God lead my life.

If you are a youngster, please please please, don't waste your time! If not, you'll be wasted by your time in your future time. Value your family and your studies. Don't value something that will waste you! 
So, STUDY AND STUDY! 

Thanks for reading my post! Enjoy your day! 

God loves you and bless you!
Elisa Jean XO

Monday, December 16, 2013

Overwhelmed Love

Hi guys! I'm writing this post after came back from Bintulu, my hometown. This time was a great experience, though I didn't stay there long enough. Sigh. Anyway, I found out too many things and I wanted to share with you. I'll not share too much about it, because I want to have a privacy on somethings. You know, when you meet people and people start talking about what you have written in facebook or blogger, you'll be like WHAT? YOU'VE BEEN READING MY BLOG?!

I still wanna share with you guys because I think there are something that God has told me and I want to tell you about how He loves everyone including you! OK!

Bintulu was a very soundly and nice place to stay at. However, recently, the condition has changed literally. I don't know how to describe it well. So, lets talk about people there. The people are OK. My grandpa lives there obviously with my grandma. My grandma has just gone travelling, so left my grandpa there alone in a big house. I was there for 4 days. So, I stayed with my grandpa. I felt the loneliness of him very much. I don't know how to say, I just wanna write this post when I saw him after I arrived there. I was thinking about how does he lives and so on... Nevermind. There is always a show of love from him. He wanted me to eat fruits and all. Yea. I must say that he didn't actually say like ELISA EAT THESE. However, he was just willingly to let me eat the fruits. The fruits that he has planted.

My niece, Joyce, who is a really tall and thin girl, showed love to me too. I don't know how to say and what to say about the real action of love and sacrifices. HAHA. Ok. She bought me things. Ok, maybe you will be saying I'm a money minded person or presents minded person. But I'm not. It is just that she bought the things from different places that she has gone to. So, you can see, she always thinks about people. I mean whenever she goes, she always thinks about people she loves.

Here are some photos that I've taken in Bintulu. Not much, just two.

Outside my grandpa's house

Nephew! Jayden

After coming back, on the road side back to house in KL.


Post ends here. 
Thanks for reading.
Elisa Jean.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Bugs

Hey guys ( I mean everyone )! I have this sudden thought of writing a post about desire. So, I named this post BUGS. Yea, quite a good name for this post and me! I've been attracted by my desires to do something that are not necessary. Like, facebooking, watch Youtube video, taking nap, talking and wondering. These activities shouldn't be included in a holiday routine of mine! Never ever! I mean yea, I don't really like wasting my time doing something that are meaningless. Sigh.

Ok. So, today I killed one bug in my body. I finally washed my shoes! CLAPPP... My jogging shoes and my school shoes. I wanted to wash them this morning but ended up I washed them today evening. I was so lazy as I wanted to sleep but not washing my shoes. Thanks God, at last, I did the washing but not sleeping. HEHE.

I read this story in Bible this morning. It is about Jesus healed a man with leprosy. The man with leprosy believed that Jesus could cure him and he asked Jesus for healing. And then, Jesus said OK, He healed the person. Immediately, the person was cured.

I am thinking about this story, if I'm willing to overcome something or to change something, I should ask God for help but not on my own. Therefore, I prayed that the bugs in my body can die. Die forever. After praying I felt lazy again and didn't want to wash my shoes. Then, many hours had gone, I just washed my shoes. Thanks God! Glory to the Lord!

Yea. Actually if you believe God can do it for you, you ask Him to give you. He will give you and the medicine reaction is fast and good. Although sometimes you feel that why God doesn't reply your message, he will let you know why he doesn't reply you so fast. He always has his own plan. The best, big and nice plan.

So, I have many plans next year. WOHOO. Maybe the plans I'm doing will not involve with too much people. HAHAHA.

With joyful mood,
Elisa Jean X

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Was

Hello my reader(whoever is reading this post)! I'm sorry that I keep posting passage like non stop. Don't ask me why, because I'm gonna tell you why. I've too much to say. I wanna let people know what I'm thinking. Not that I want people to notice me or care about me, but to know what they're doing and what really matter their life. I strongly feel the uneasiness living here in my area. I have the feeling that people are materialistic, money minded and luxurious minded. I can't tell them to stop the thinking but what to do? So, I'm writing this post to tell them & my readers.

So yea. One year ago, I was a stupid, timid and loved pretty girl. I wanted to get good results and wear pretty clothes. That was me. Everyday I checked my mass as I wanted it to be 40 kg/ 90 pounds. Guess what? I always couldn't loss my weight because that time I was 42 kg. People, think about this, how can a person who is 160 cm tall weigh 40 kg? I didn't claim myself a thin or a slim person because I kept thinking I was too fat. I WANNA BE THE SLIMMEST ABD THE THINNEST. I thought that. Just eating 2 pieces of toast as my breakfast, one palm of rice and vege as my lunch and one palm of rice and vege for my dinner and an apple everyday. I drank neither sweet drinks nor drinks beside water. I didn't eat chocolate. I jogged twice a week. That was my routine. I cared too much about my body shape and I couldn't manage to concentrate on my study because I'd been thinking what should I have for my next meal. I suffered hunger and aneroxia nervosa. This unhealthy routine made my face paler and paler until one day... My friend, Mandy, whom mother fetched me for going back school, asked me was I sick. I said no. Then there I realised I was thin enough but still my weight maintain at 41 kg. So, yea I knew I had problem with my health but I didn't care much about it.

Until I was in Form 4, I started stop having this stupid mind set. Because I think food is so and super delicious (except the meat, I'm still not a fan of red meat). So yea, but then I found out I gained weight and I felt like I'm being fat. Therefore, I felt sad at once. Due to the activities I'd joined in my school, my busy led to my careless in my eating habit.

Till I realised there are much more things I have to do instead of having my worrying mode of my eating habit all the time. I jo maximum 4 times a week, minimum once. Then I started know that as a Christian I shouldn't join this 'getting fit' gang. I shouldn't be having this stupid thinking in my mind, but to know more about learning like Jesus's characters and then spread the gospel.

'KEEP ONESELF FROM BEING POLLUTED BY THE WORLD' 

I came across this verse while I was reading Bible. I wondered if I was polluted by the world. The answer must be yes. I was polluted by the world. I thought about how important getting scholarship and earning as much money as I can in the future and how to attract people to notice me.  I wanted people to mind me, to care about me. I wanted to be the only and the most special person. I didn't care, I just loved it. 

Now, I just wanna share this to you. I strongly feel that there is a God who conducts the whole world and love everyone( as everyone is created by Him). I can tell you my realisation is because of His grace as he let me know that I'm weak and strengthless without Him. Don't tell me there isn't such thing as God. The whole world shows that the things are created by someone. Example, you're now using an iPhone or maybe Samsung. This 2 products must be created by someone or a group of people, they can't be created without someone. So, same as you and the whole world! You are created by God and loved by Him.

So yea! Here comes to an end of my post. I just wanna let you know that you are special as God has created you. Maybe you think you are stupid, but I tell you, no one is stupid. Like me, stupid person (my brain is small) I still can write something long like this although you may not understand some of my sentences because of grammar mistakes. 

Always be joyful & loved,
Elisa Jean.

Friday, December 6, 2013

Gifts

Hai everybody! I feel so excited about this Christmas month. I feel like a bird flying high up the sky and chirping around the world, letting the world to feel the joy and the peace that I'm feeling. This joyful moment is gonna passed away and I'll be facing the new year. New pressure, new things, new life and new food! OMG. I love food very much, I can't resist food. It was too delicious and tasteful. Food gives me such big desire!

I bought this for fun. One is at RM1.40. 

So, yeah. Do you know why ones send gifts to the others during Christmas? Yea. Now, I'm gonna tell you. It's because the birth of Jesus Christ is a gift to all the people on the earth from He born till his body died, and after his body died. So, this means that Jesus birth was a thing that people are joyful with because he was born to wash off our sin. So, yea. Let's round an applause to our Jesus Christ!

That's so cool. I mean I don't have any requirement to receive any gifts but yet God gives me the gifts. I'm so happy. So  hohoho.

My mum has been Santa Claus for years. Maybe because her size suits the Santa duty... Haha. Just kidding, she is fit right now, and she likes doing exercise. She is supermodel! :P  Yea. This Santa made me warped the gifts and my sister and I ( the dwarfs). However, I enjoyed doing this job! Who is the Santa sending the gifts to? Obviously not the dwarfs. Yea. My auntie and her family. Ok...

The gifts. Haha. I'm not going to tell you what are inside!

Haha. Yesterday I went to Amcrop Mall to buy books. If you ask me why did I go there, I would tell you I went there because the books were affordable. I love reading books. I just don't know why... Having this super long 2 months holidays I'ld feel lifeless if I have no books to read. Sigh. I don't really like romance because there are kissing and some more things that I don't really agree about ( as in adult shouldn't do that, please!). I like reading books that are about history or some sort of mythology. Theses sorts of books make me think about the characters of people, how people behave. While I love books that are about crimes. So, there may be detective who make the cases closed file. 

I bought these two books each at RM9.90. Actually I bought three books, but I gave one to Emily. 

Okay... I like photographing... SEE, my photography skill is cool. I just took theses photos for my own to see and let you, my readers to see. If you don't like them, just ignore. 

So, yea. Currently I'm reading this book. This book I bought at RM8.00 at Popular bookstore. Kinda cheap. I buy cheap books because I've no money... But I enjoy reading this book. Get it in Popular, it's only RM8.00. Don't think I'm money minded, it's just because I care about how much I've spent ( my papa's money ). 

Drink water while reading. 

So, this photo ends my post. :D
God bless you.

Elisa Jean

Sunday, December 1, 2013

December

I'm writing this post. Yeas. Currently. Do you know what is the meaning of treasure? I bet you know. Because your English is better than mine. Haha. Currently, now, is the first day of December. Instead of looking back what I've done in November, it is really disappointing. Ok, never mind, we look forward. This is the new month.



Well, currently I'm reading Konserto Terakhir by Abdullah Hussain. This book is written by a Malay, who I don't really know. This is not an English book, but a Melayu language book. This book is also my this subject Bahasa Melayu's literature. I simply don't like this subject, I suffer a lot by just studying this subject. It is not hard to speak in Melayu as this language is spoken by the Malays who I think they're quite friendly. So, there was once I had to do Bahasa Melayu's aural. I seldom speak use this language so I just simply talked about something about my school ( because I got the topic of What do you think about your secondary school ?). Then, I spoke not fluently, but I personally thought it was better than using English. Sigh. 

Yea. So, this Konserto Terakhir is about a young man whose name is Hilmi. He was a Malay from the countryside ( in Bahasa Melayu, countryside means kampung ). He came to the city to get a job. However, he only had his education level until standard 4, which considered that he could not get a well- paid job. In the city, he stayed in his uncle's house. His auntie was not friendly as his auntie was one of the people who didn't like people who was not educated. So, he was having hard time getting a job. However, he got to be a gardener in his uncle's house. Then, he started to learn piano and his piano fees were RM0! Then, I don't know what has happened, because I haven't read finish.

This story is so touched. I feel the sadness and the bitterness of being the main character. He was keen in playing piano, being a successful man. It was really hard for a man who didn't have much money to learn playing piano. In the end, he became a successful pianist. 

Reflect to myself, I think I'm really blessed as I have the opportunity to have my piano lessons this year and next year too! I really have to be thankful with what I've had. Really! Just calculate the money I've used throughout the year, I must say I've used a lot of money. I bought this and that. Therefore, December is the month which I really need to be humble and stop buying things! Urgh! Just to think how much I've used for my tuition lessons and also my piano lessons. I just can't convince myself to buy anything more. 

Looking forward to the trip back to Bintulu, my hometown, I feel great. Then, I'll have a trip to Australia. I'm really excited. I tell myself not to buy clothes anymore, because I just wanna save money as I wanna do something which will let your mouth opens as big as it can be. Despite money, I've time. Yea. I don't wanna waste my time anymore, because I remember that time is more valuable than money. I'll like to offer my time reading bible and books, and of course, show my love to people around me. So, yea... 

Thanks for reading my grammar mistakes and my unreadable sentence structure. 
With love,
Elisa Jean.

p.s Currently training myself to be a muscular man! :D 50 times push- up ; 100 times crunches ; 80 times lifting legs. :)