Never Feel Scared!

Hi peeps. It has been a long while I haven't not blogged. I wasn't around because I was in church camp, Bk Quiz and tired.

Back to the time when I was with my friends in CHS ( Catholic High School ) being a recorder. I was sort of stupid at first. Basically, we arrived CHS at 7 something. Before that we gathered at Taman Bahagia LRT. I walked there alone at 6:00 a.m. I could say I had turned my head for more than 10 times though the walk was only 1 minute.We went CHS by train and we did a bit of walking. I  was a cool experience, I would say. By the time we were there, we got our breakfast. I was too full to eat that. So, I didn't take. Just as nearly everyone finished the breakfast, we went doing the BK Quiz. I expected it to be hard. But then the quiz ended up to be super duper hard. The questions even asked about the sequence and all that. And the night before this, I did my revision from the last chapter to the first one.

After that, we went and changed our clothes. All of us wore greyish colour tee. Then we went down. We had P and W session. This was what I amazed about. They could do Praise and Worship in the open air ( in the car park lot ). In my school, we couldn't do it, because there would be people who "be song " ( not happy ). Glory to the Lord, I still can see Malaysia's school has this praise and worship in the car park lot where everyone will walk by.

Then, we went back to the hall and started our work. I was a bit scared that I couldn't manage the things, but ended up I could. Glory to the Lord. I was in charged of two teams, which afterward they weren't in the next stage of the competition. One was from CHS and one team was from Subang Utama. They did their quiz and I recorded down the marks. At the end of the quiz, the Subang Utama team gave me a paper which they had drawn. They said the paper was a souvenir for me.

After that I was asked to be the finalist recorder. I struggled because I was scared that I would make mistake or what. But then there was a thing came to my mind - Nothing Is Impossible With God. So, I said yes. Then, I did it. Glory to the Lord.

After all, we went to A&W, but there was a long queue due to that shop was closing down. We ended up in McD ( Amcrop Mall ). Then, we went to Book Excess. And my best friend, Audrey, bought the Divergent ( Book 4 ). She said it was the best thing ever. Because she got the book at the price below RM20 and it was a hard cover book. ( My face was like: -.- ) She bought it. Then she told me this was the first book of the Divergent. Then I said no. Then we checked, she just knew that it was BOOK 4. She was kind of upset. HAHA. Back to me, I saw a Dictionary and I bought it. I was only RM 14.90. Then we went to LRT station ( Audrey, Me, Alwin ).

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It was a Sunday. I went to church. I wore a tee with a skirt and a sandal. I brought my heart there and listened to the sermon. 

At the evening ( 6:00 p.m ), I was in the camp. I thought I would be the very first one to arrive, but then I wasn't. Because the others were too early. So, yea. Then we had like a small prayer meeting there. And we prayed for things. After that, I did some helping ( though I didn't think I really helped, whatever.. ). Something strange happened. I saw someone who looked like my friends' brother. But then Emily said the person wasn't their brother. But I said yes. After asking them, the person was their cousin. And I was like: Why on earth has got people who look alike. ( By this point, I should say I'm really bad at differentiate people, that's why I'm a twin. )

Then we had the praise and worship. And talks. Something that I kept remember was that I was not alone, I was with God. God was the one who always strengthened me. These were what I thought. The talks were about characters. Before this, I strongly believed that the characters were the only things that could influence people. And through these talks, I learnt that I was right. Glory to the Lord. 

Just a small thing to share here. Before this I suffered from a dreadful illness - LSE- Low Self- Esteem. And I was also a person who were sensitive. And because of these two combination, I was half- dying. I couldn't face myself. I couldn't talk to people because I refused to. I won't say Hi when I saw anyone. I would just run away when I was scared. I was scared. 

It was really amazing about what God had planned. He made me went for the BK Quiz, followed by the Camp. In the camp, especially the Talent Show, I wasn't ready for it. I was scared because I was the leader of my team. I didn't know what to tell them. And my teammates didn't know how to act, express the whole story out. I was really helpless. Plus, Jia Yong wasn't always there ( she gotta do some preparation for the games ). I was so scared. What I wanted to thank God was that everything went smoothly and Jia Yong wasn't that busy and she could help me to direct the whole team. I could tell, I shouldn't be that scared. 

I could say what always surrounded me was the feeling of scared. The feeling of no faith in God. I couldn't bear anything on my own. It's like I can't do anything. 

We, people, have to get up and say no to the fear. No more fear. God is not a God who loves fear. 

With Philip ( the only photo I have -.- in the camp )

* photo from Teacher Jennifer

Our team! JOSEPH! 

Never feel scared, because nothing is impossible with God. 

My current task. 

Thanks for reading! 

Love you,

Elisa Jean.

1.8.2014

9:40 a.m

Friday