Pressure

Today is the second last day of March and the first day of the week. I'm really lazy right now, because I don't feel like doing my homework that I need to pass up tomorrow. It's a shame of me because I fail doing any things. I'm such a bad bad student. I'm not supposing my SPM will get a good grade. However, I'll try my best to get rid of the laziness in my body and screw with the 10 subjects I'm having in school and 2 music courses ( which cause my time is use up all the way ( time management is bad )).

I've been really lazy throughout the week. I didn't do much revision. I watched television. This is a typical me life style. I'm such a horrible person. So, don't ever think that I'm amazing or what else or I'm smart or dull.( Yea, I'm a dull ).

I was sick yesterday afternoon and night. I was like no energy and having fever. Amazingly, today I'm OK. Thanks God for this! Yeah, and I finally got my shoes washed. You may be thinking I'm a last minute person, I'm gonna tell you, YES. And soon will not. ( HOPEFULLY)

Well, I locked my facebook account and my instagram. I feel like I've spent to much time doing something nonsense. And I did it. (Y)

I'm stressed out recently. I gave myself pressure all the time. Here, I would like to mention that I'm a perfectionist. I can't stand something that aren't good enough. I don't mean people, but things that can be done better but I didn't make it / couldn't make it. I've always been wondering about how can people excel so well in their studies, sports or music or socialising. Due to the fact that I'm not good in those fields, I am stressed out and pressured myself to do such things.

I hope today is gonna be productive as my brother and sister are having their meetings with friends. I'm the only one who is free right now.

So, yea. One should always surrender things to God. I'll surrender my pressure to Him.

One of the things that I screw up with.

Especially the part that my left palm feels like being tortured. 

Chinese book which I bought yesterday. 

I felt in love with the cover because it is rose. 

And this book is the writing of the winner of the competition in Malaysia. 

This is another Chinese book that I bought yesterday at RM 30.00

The writer is from China. 

Thanks for reading my post,

Elisa Jean.
30.3.2014
Sunday
1:55 p.m