Last two days was my brother, Eric's birthday. We had such a big cake to eat which was really nice and awesome. We didn't celebrate the birthday too big as my two sisters were not here with us. Lets talk about my brother.
Eric is 10- year- old. He is tall, I think. However my relatives say he is short. In my state, I think he'll probably grown taller than me, so I assume that he is very tall. As a boy, he didn't talk so much. This lead me a big problem. That is I don't know what he is thinking about. This is quite frustrated. Everything he will just keep it in his mind and don't share with us.
I didn't care him too much maybe because I think he is such a BURDEN?? Being a daughter, I can't forget to study. But being a sister, neither I teach him nor guide him. Once the exam is coming nearer and nearer, I forget who I am but remember what the book is talking about.
I scolded him a lot in the past few years. But within this two years, I refused to talk to him as I scared any bad things will happen to me. In the past, when every time I scolded him, he would break into tears and shut the door then lock himself in the room. I scold him because I couldn't stand on his laziness with his homework and his project! The last minute work isn't the best. He always did his project the day before the due date. Being a sister, I scolded him every time. When I scolded him, I would be scolded by my sisters. They would say I shout too loud or I false Eric to do his project.
Because of not getting BOMS from my sisters, now I refuse to teach him. For instance, my mind want to teach him but suddenly there is a thought tells me that my exam is more important. However, sometimes I also think that my mum cares more about him and doesn't care about me. Here is a real example. The week before my PMR exam started, my mum kept telling me to teach him Bahasa Melayu. This burdened me a lot. I was quite hot temper as I didn't listen at all. The more important exam was what I had but not his!
Yet, I found that he was really a good kid when I commanded him to help me take this and that. Am I funny?
Haha. I just want to laugh at myself as I being so funny.
Sometimes you don't care. Sometimes you really care. That is because your mind is not clear.
God prepared the road for me to go and there must be something different with the others. HE wants us to follow what he has prepared so I accept what he has given.
Lets pray to the Lord that we have a happy family!
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