Lost at World

Hi guys!
This lazy me is posting something again! Well, first of all, I just want to express how I feel right now. I'm remorseful and sad and yeah a bit thankful. Every emotion is like coming towards me. The haze that has been surrounding my house is terrible. My eyes are sweating and so my throat can't function well. Everything is like almost haven't done and yet I'm still here, in front of the computer typing this post. Well, I just want to escape from the books and works. They are so tiring. I enjoy doing them but I'm somehow, can't concentrate in one. It is like when I'm doing one of the works, I'll think about the others that I've not done. Quite TERRIBLE, right?

I feel like I can't cope for them. Everything I do is going to be the worst among the others who are same as me, doing the same things. I call this lost at world. It is like I'm sailing a boat at sea and at the same time, I've to get food in my own way. Moreover, I've to count the days that I've been at the sea and how to make purified water. Yea. It is like that and my feeling is like that. Additional, I've to care the one who stays in the small boat I have been sailing. Things are like that now in my part of life. They crash together in your head but at the end there isn't any result. Then, you'll feel like asking WHAT? WHY? HOW? The WH questions.

I'm a christian. Yet, I haven't done enough or you can say I didn't do anything. Sad, right? I've just decided to read Bible and yet I only memerised 1 sentence a day! OK that is just a start!

We are multitaskers, we have to do our best in every part. Let us RUN TOWARDS THE AIM THAT GOD HAS GIVEN US!

XXX Elisa Jean XXX

KEEP CALM

Recently, I have been busily doing my work. They are all projects, co-curriculum and so on. You may say I am not as busy as you, but I tell you the work are quite tiring. I have felt the tiredness and just couldn't overcome, and yet, I spent almost others time sleeping and thinking while staring. They are TASKS for me.

The work have due dates. Everything must rush and I have to do them very well in order to carry on to the next stage. Well, getting co-curriculum's marks is not the main purpose I participate in these activities, I just want to try and get busy. This main be the main objective. I just want to occupy my time in order to train myself so that I can go for work in my uni life.

DUE DATE. They often pressure me doing them. The work, they are like if they are saying HI to me. And yet, I respond them in an unfriendly HI. You get what I mean?

Last Friday, I was collecting photos money. This is one of my work and I'm still under probation for this. So, the due date was that day. And collecting money from teachers is not an easy job I tell you. Once of the time I rushed and fell down from the stairs while I was going up the stairs. Now, my knees has a big red black patch.

Now, I'm designing badges, and I feel like the design will be KEEP CALM AND PLANT IT. They are so pretty and I've used a KEEP CALM website to do this. Suddenly, I just realised that I've been rushing for everything. Eating, drinking, jogging, playing, reading, studying, doing work and more and more. KEEP CALM is the word to tell me I've been rushing for all the work but not the work God wants me to do. ( Shameful )

John 8:31- 32
To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

Yes, I just realised that I've been in a tough time that the work are my boss and I have been working for them. Oh God, thanks for giving me strength but yet I'm naughty that I didn't do your work. Thanks letting me here to think about what you've taught me trough Bible. Thanks for letting my father and mother giving me eyes and small brains to see and observe about the surroundings. Thanks for everything you give me.

Here is my result of BADGES

KEEP CALM AND ENJOY YOUR LIFE. :)

XXX Elisa Jean XXX

Common Thing That You Won't Realise

OH! I haven't been renewed post for a long time. You may ask me why. I'll tell you that it is because I've been busily doing my work. Today may be the only time to renew.

I was struggling about many things I've got. People like me are not thanksgiving. I've always thought that I'm lonely and there is no love in my life. That is why I've been crying for a long time. Days by days and now, I just realise people around me are important and they've always given me supports and loves like what God has given to me.

The latest post of Emily and I

When we went to church camp...

We posted this because... for FUN! 

God actually provides everything I want. 

Because He guides and loves me everyday. 

That's why, my family still love me so much.

And always give supports to me.

With love, Elisa Jean.