继续

各位觉得很意外吧！书写华语绝对不是我的强项，但为了进步我的华语程度，我坚持要写华语文章。

身为一个华人，我们是不是应该把持着自己的语言，华语呢？这对我来说不重要，因为人有自己的选择权，我们不必要帮别人选或逼他们选。常常我们都会因为守旧而忽略了一些重要的事。那我就是其中的一个。守旧也就是指说一个人一直把守着以前的观念而不愿意去改变。往往有很多事情我们都阻止不了自己在做一件事情的时候守住旧的思想及概念。

身为一个不厉害读书的孩子，我也时常守旧。常常认为男比女更好。我也常常埋怨上帝为什么把我成为一个女的。但是往往我都想起我的出现是上帝安排的。想到这里，我就无法在埋怨下去了。

人生无法重新再来。后在当下的我们应该好好地把握时间及时机，好让我们还没有完成的事情继续及不反悔的做下去。

别忘了上帝一直在看顾你。

The things that I don't care.

I am very happy as PMR exam is over. Therefore, I tell myself that the next BIG exam will be SPM. I know that is tiring when you say it during a free day. In my state, the most important thing is to be hard working! Once I told myself to relax, my mind will relax although I have stopped it for long time ago.

Last two days was my brother, Eric's birthday. We had such a big cake to eat which was really nice and awesome. We didn't celebrate the birthday too big as my two sisters were not here with us. Lets talk about my brother.

Eric is 10- year- old. He is tall, I think. However my relatives say he is short. In my state, I think he'll probably grown taller than me, so I assume that he is very tall. As a boy, he didn't talk so much. This lead me a big problem. That is I don't know what he is thinking about. This is quite frustrated. Everything he will just keep it in his mind and don't share with us. 

I didn't care him too much maybe because I think he is such a BURDEN?? Being a daughter, I can't forget to study. But being a sister, neither I teach him nor guide him. Once the exam is coming nearer and nearer, I forget who I am but remember what the book is talking about. 

I scolded him a lot in the past few years. But within this two years, I refused to talk to him as I scared any bad things will happen to me. In the past, when every time I scolded him, he would  break into tears and shut  the door then lock himself in the room. I scold him because I couldn't stand on his laziness with his homework and his project! The last minute work isn't the best. He always did his project the day before the due date. Being a sister, I scolded him every time. When I scolded him, I would be scolded by my sisters. They would say I shout too loud or I false Eric to do his project. 

Because of not getting BOMS from my sisters, now I refuse to teach him. For instance, my mind want to teach him but suddenly there is a thought tells me that my exam is more important. However, sometimes I also think that my mum cares more about him and doesn't care about me. Here is a real example. The week before my PMR exam started, my mum kept telling me to teach him Bahasa Melayu. This burdened me a lot.  I was quite hot temper as I didn't listen at all. The more important exam was what I had but not his!

Yet, I found that he was really a good kid when I commanded him to help me take this and that. Am I funny?

Haha. I just want to laugh at myself as I being so funny.

Sometimes you don't care. Sometimes you really care. That is because your mind is not clear. 

God prepared the road for me to go and there must be something different with the others. HE wants us to follow what he has prepared so I accept what he has given.

Lets pray to the Lord that we have a happy family!