Sunday, May 8, 2016

Twin >> 5 Things that We've Learnt From The Separation

Life is full of wonders and amazing adventure. 



There was this idea popped out from my mind. I wanted to do a collaboration with my twin. I sent her this topic: 5 things that you've learnt from being separated from me. She agreed to do it with me! Here we go! 


Emily
1) Having more interaction with peers
I used to always relying on my twin and rarely engaging with the others. I started to make friends with people in my course, be more engaged in their lives. I'm now having my own gang of friends. 

Elisa
1. Friends are important.
There are times when I have no idea who to turn to when I face every day problem. A message back to my twin does not always get instant response. Friends, who are on the same piece of land as me are more responsive? Most of the time I'm probably hanging out with friend at the moment.



Emily
2) Accept things are to be faced alone
The presence of my twin has always been a barrier for me to be independent and face the reality by myself. It's struggle for me to cope with everyday life alone, it is so strange. 

Elisa
2. Realising that I still have a lot to learn.
Emily was always the one who did the cleaning up for our room, while I did the laundry. The separation set me to be more accountable with the setting of my room. And I found out that laundry was never a problem of mine even if I had to do it on my own.



Emily
3) Being able to drive alone around City centre
My twin used to being with me all the time I drove, especially going to the city centre. All this while, I started to explore new routes to go home from school. It's scary but I managed to get home early!

Elisa
3. Selfie camera is finally useful.
There was always my twin who helped me to take photos (even when I was reluctant to be in the photo). I critised those who took selfie as people who were lonely and needed the social media attention very much. And yes, now, when I take selfie, I crave for someone to be by my side, or at least, take random pic of mine.



Emily
4) Waking up in the morning by my own
I was always waken up by my twin! She was like my alarm. Nowadays, I always set alarm clock in my phone. I get up super early everyday and never miss any of my class. What's more, I get to do my 20 to 30 minutes devotion every morning. 

Elisa
4. I'm, afterall, not that special.
Growing up being known as a twin was a grant from God. Everyone would have that odd or envious look when we met them. I used to promise Emily that I wouldn't reveal my twin identity to whoever I meet here. But now, I am a loud speaker who always declares myself as a twin even if people have no interest in who I am.



Emily
5) Everyone is lonely and we all need people
I always wanted to have my own time, in other words, I was very selfish to spend time with others because I thought we all needed to enjoy the loneliness. But now, I feel what loneliness really means. It means you don't have anybody else to stick with and indeed absolute freedom is given. 

Elisa
5. I can live without anyone. 
The first few days of separation were hard for me. It was as if I got one side of my lung cut off from my body. Breathing, walking, studying, practically everything was hard. Eventually, the Bible, prayers and God have become real God in my life. I learnt that God is the only one who will never leave me.

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Upholding to God has become what that we really focus on. 
To be loved, as to love.
X

Friday, May 6, 2016

Holding on

Holding tight to my belief has become a struggle when I'm constantly being distracted by the world around me. 



I hate how people always blame money or friends for the consequences that they bear. Being accountable to responsibilities and to yourself is no longer something that you can blame others for. I learn this through a hard time last year. I wept, I cried for empathy, I longed for little bit of love to be shared to me. 

You'll never get over it, unless you realise you're on your own. 

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"Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." (Psalm 23:4)

How much, we have been relying of others? 

We need relationships.