I like Paul

Hi guys! How are you?

It has been a whole week of exams. My friends are supermen and superwomen. They have been lacking of sleeps. Not like me, I don't even care about TRIAL EXAMS.

Anyway, I'm wondering where to go and where to study after the November Public Test. Thinking of going to Methodist College KL. Doing A- Levels? Or AUSTMAT? Owh dear, I've no idea.

I'm sort of excited about college life, because I have never been a college student before!

It's like go across the line which I never dare to cross. Meeting new people, no more DONKEY FACES. Or perhaps, become more mature?

Well, MATURITY is not something that I really want to seek for. What really make me curious about are the acts of Paul. Dear lovely Paul.

Wonder who is Paul? My lover? No no. The " PAUL " is not my uncle nor any one. Paul is the Saul in Acts, Bible. He was a former tax collector ( if I'm not wrong ) during the Rom ( I guess? ). He hated the Christians a lot. But once he was a Christian, he did a lot of preaching and teaching and all the stuffs.

One of the thing amazed me was that during that time, in church the people shared things. Like what they had earned, they shared. And shared and shared and shared.

SHARE!

I never like sharing. But God wants me to share my things with the poor with people who have nothing. The more I have, the more I have to share!

Dear! My selfishness is a dreadful thing for me. I want to change but it is like never gonna be changed!

Thinking about no sharing, the world are full of cold hearts. COLD.

That is what I've always been. A cold and selfish person. There's no way for a person like me be loved or liked by people.

So,  BEING SELFISH IS AN ACTION OF LOVING YOURSELF TOO MUCH.

Peeps, let's us share our things.

First will be time, then food ( for me >.< ).

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD.


Gambateh
Elisa Jean O
31.8.14

P.s MERDEKA! Today is MALAYSIA INDEPENDENT DAY! So proud of Malaysia.

Short, Quick!

Hi peeps!

I just wanna post something short.

I am currently having my TRIALS exams. I'm sort of lazy for the whole exams. Well, I'll reenergise a after writing thins post ( hopefully ). 

So, current hot topic in my life is - WHAT TO STUDY AFTER SPM.

One thing I'm very excited about after SPM is not PROM, but it my family trip to ( maybe ) NZ. That's gonna be fun because NZ's December is SUMMER! I love summer! ( I'm sort of OLAF from FROZEN )

Anyway, I got chosen for National Service. I hope I'll get to go Sarawak or my favourite place in malaysia- SABAH. #foreverborneopeople

Well, I plan to study in MCKL since my twin wants it so much. She's gonna start her study in January. But I won't join her. Because I'll be in NS ( Hopefully ). Then maybe in march, I can join her.

I'll be studying A- Level, since MCKL has A- level course starts in March. 

This post should end here. I'm gonna write an essay. 

Bye.

Elisa jean XO

Sunday.

It's not a Curse

Hi guys!

I believe many of you guys had heard about me being chosen in NS. And before I knew it, I listed down the good and the not good. Here is the list:

GOOD
1. I can lose weight
Basically I heard about many of them who went NS gained weight. And the food there are kari and all that. Well, since I'm a bit lipid phobic, I think I can reduce my weight.

2. I can tone my body
NS is full of exercises? And team building? Or socializing?
Well, going for NS, I can learn how to crawl up a tree, do many times of pumping ( ? ), for sure, I can  be muscular!

3. Train my discipline
Basically I'm not very discipline but a bit discipline. I can be trained to be super powerful in time management? I guess so.

4. I can get money
Can I get money for going to NS? I heard there is money, but I'm not sure.
If I gotta get it, then, why not?

5. NS builds out going personality
So, I wish to be more outgoing.

6. It's God's will
Yes. I wanna to know how tough it will be ( seems like most of my friends are scared of NS ), so that I can train my strength. God is always there with me.


NOT GOOD
1. 3 months not playing GUITAR
This is a suffer. I can't live without guitar? Erm, I think it should be : I WILL NOT BE OKAY WITH A DAY WITHOUT PLAYING GUITAR.

2. 3 months not playing PIANO
Since the day I have replayed piano, I wish to reach my very own target : GET A GRADE 8 PIANO CERT. And after this year, I may not have opportunities to play piano. ( I may be going overseas studying foundation ) Plus, I love piano too!

So, at the end, NS is not a curse. Please, people, I'll be right back after 3 months ( within these I still can meet my family right? )

Praise The Lord for everything!

With love,
Elisa jean.
16.08.14
Sat

( p.s Today is Greyson Chance's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GREYSON! )

A Curios

Heyyo!

Let's talk about yesterday. I was in the sketch team ( BAD DAY ). And yea, I acted like a NOOB. I was so noob there, like a piece of wood. Well, it was kind of hard for me to act because I never have had acting talent. 

Anyway, I wanna talk about PHONE. I always wonder what people use phone for? ( especially smart phone ) After having tons of thinking about why people use phone, I decided to ask them. 

I asked my friends, their replies were - TALKING CRAPS. 

To this point, I feel so... I'm a person who doesn't like talking craps ( that's why you always see me with my THAT FACE. To be honest, I feel like talking craps is just wasting time. So, people, next time try talk about something knowledgeable, or perhaps, just important stuff.

Well, I think I'm the only odd one who never like talking craps ( in the phone ). Well, if you want to talk something that you think is craps, yes, you can chat with me, because I never want to stop talking with people. ( I'm kind of slap my own face? )

My current feeling is good. I still have many chapters not studied. 

Thanks for reading my critical thoughts. 

Your still can message me or chat with me, or LEAVE A COMMENT, COMMENTSSS.

Elisa jean 

9.8.14

Saturday

8:35 a.m 

A Quick Thought

Hi there! I wonder if there is anyone reading this blog post, since I won't be sharing this on Facebook. Because I closed Facebook. 

Well, Emily is sort of telling me something about her future. She wants to study overseas so badly. She hopes she could just study in somewhere next year. She wants to take double bachelors ( Surgery and Medication ). 

So, what about me? 

I wish I could study here, Malaysia, for my pre U. Maybe AusMat or A- Level, in any college. I'm sort of afraid that I won't be taken by any U. Well, God is with me.

My parent (dad, obviously ) says it's okay for us to study straightly in overseas. 

So I starts to be panic. Ugh... What I'm worry about is that I WONT GET TO LEARN PIANO AND GUITAR ANYMORE. I'm sad sad sad. 

You may suggest that I can learn overseas, but I tell you one lesson fee is equal to 4 lessons in Malaysia. I love Malaysia. 

What's your ambition? ( Lonely person always asks herself question and answers it herself )

I wanna be a lawyer. Probably lawyer who can involve in politics. It has been 7 months that I'm thinking about giving my life to the citizens of malaysia. I just can't help being emphathy with people around me. The people who suffer from poverty. Even not poverty, they are many of them can't appreciate the best things in their lives. They are many of them don't know about God. There are many of them can't stop being sinful ( I know I'm sinful, but we can try not... ).

Well, this is my short post. I wonder there are people reading. If you are, just leave a comment or whatever me, so that I know!

Anything wanna to pray for you, you can also write down or pm me through Facebook messenger. 

Thanks.

XO

Elisa Jean.

2.8.2014

Saturday

Never Feel Scared!

Hi peeps. It has been a long while I haven't not blogged. I wasn't around because I was in church camp, Bk Quiz and tired.

Back to the time when I was with my friends in CHS ( Catholic High School ) being a recorder. I was sort of stupid at first. Basically, we arrived CHS at 7 something. Before that we gathered at Taman Bahagia LRT. I walked there alone at 6:00 a.m. I could say I had turned my head for more than 10 times though the walk was only 1 minute.We went CHS by train and we did a bit of walking. I  was a cool experience, I would say. By the time we were there, we got our breakfast. I was too full to eat that. So, I didn't take. Just as nearly everyone finished the breakfast, we went doing the BK Quiz. I expected it to be hard. But then the quiz ended up to be super duper hard. The questions even asked about the sequence and all that. And the night before this, I did my revision from the last chapter to the first one.

After that, we went and changed our clothes. All of us wore greyish colour tee. Then we went down. We had P and W session. This was what I amazed about. They could do Praise and Worship in the open air ( in the car park lot ). In my school, we couldn't do it, because there would be people who "be song " ( not happy ). Glory to the Lord, I still can see Malaysia's school has this praise and worship in the car park lot where everyone will walk by.

Then, we went back to the hall and started our work. I was a bit scared that I couldn't manage the things, but ended up I could. Glory to the Lord. I was in charged of two teams, which afterward they weren't in the next stage of the competition. One was from CHS and one team was from Subang Utama. They did their quiz and I recorded down the marks. At the end of the quiz, the Subang Utama team gave me a paper which they had drawn. They said the paper was a souvenir for me.

After that I was asked to be the finalist recorder. I struggled because I was scared that I would make mistake or what. But then there was a thing came to my mind - Nothing Is Impossible With God. So, I said yes. Then, I did it. Glory to the Lord.

After all, we went to A&W, but there was a long queue due to that shop was closing down. We ended up in McD ( Amcrop Mall ). Then, we went to Book Excess. And my best friend, Audrey, bought the Divergent ( Book 4 ). She said it was the best thing ever. Because she got the book at the price below RM20 and it was a hard cover book. ( My face was like: -.- ) She bought it. Then she told me this was the first book of the Divergent. Then I said no. Then we checked, she just knew that it was BOOK 4. She was kind of upset. HAHA. Back to me, I saw a Dictionary and I bought it. I was only RM 14.90. Then we went to LRT station ( Audrey, Me, Alwin ).

***** ***** *****

It was a Sunday. I went to church. I wore a tee with a skirt and a sandal. I brought my heart there and listened to the sermon. 

At the evening ( 6:00 p.m ), I was in the camp. I thought I would be the very first one to arrive, but then I wasn't. Because the others were too early. So, yea. Then we had like a small prayer meeting there. And we prayed for things. After that, I did some helping ( though I didn't think I really helped, whatever.. ). Something strange happened. I saw someone who looked like my friends' brother. But then Emily said the person wasn't their brother. But I said yes. After asking them, the person was their cousin. And I was like: Why on earth has got people who look alike. ( By this point, I should say I'm really bad at differentiate people, that's why I'm a twin. )

Then we had the praise and worship. And talks. Something that I kept remember was that I was not alone, I was with God. God was the one who always strengthened me. These were what I thought. The talks were about characters. Before this, I strongly believed that the characters were the only things that could influence people. And through these talks, I learnt that I was right. Glory to the Lord. 

Just a small thing to share here. Before this I suffered from a dreadful illness - LSE- Low Self- Esteem. And I was also a person who were sensitive. And because of these two combination, I was half- dying. I couldn't face myself. I couldn't talk to people because I refused to. I won't say Hi when I saw anyone. I would just run away when I was scared. I was scared. 

It was really amazing about what God had planned. He made me went for the BK Quiz, followed by the Camp. In the camp, especially the Talent Show, I wasn't ready for it. I was scared because I was the leader of my team. I didn't know what to tell them. And my teammates didn't know how to act, express the whole story out. I was really helpless. Plus, Jia Yong wasn't always there ( she gotta do some preparation for the games ). I was so scared. What I wanted to thank God was that everything went smoothly and Jia Yong wasn't that busy and she could help me to direct the whole team. I could tell, I shouldn't be that scared. 

I could say what always surrounded me was the feeling of scared. The feeling of no faith in God. I couldn't bear anything on my own. It's like I can't do anything. 

We, people, have to get up and say no to the fear. No more fear. God is not a God who loves fear. 

With Philip ( the only photo I have -.- in the camp )

* photo from Teacher Jennifer

Our team! JOSEPH! 

Never feel scared, because nothing is impossible with God. 

My current task. 

Thanks for reading! 

Love you,

Elisa Jean.

1.8.2014

9:40 a.m

Friday