Triangle

Hi guys! I just came back from my church. I went there and learnt about God's words. Today probably we were talking about- Which place is our own place. So, we discussed some of the things. I thought about some things too. Like, one day I'll not be here writing blog post, because I'll have to go somewhere. Somewhere where I belong to. Well, that'll be a long story. 

Cool things about today is that there isn't any cool things. To be honest, I think I'm such a very irresponsible person in many ways. I wish that everything would just done by itself. Then, I needn't to worry about anything or put in effort. That's how I wish. But then, there isn't such COOL thing is the world, because I gotta work. 

 Let's talk about something very interesting- My school Sports Day. It was on the past Friday morning. I marched for my Blue house and ran 100 X 4 with my running mates. For the relay, we got 3rd because there were only 4 teams competiting. We were so happy about it because at least we won something. For the marching, we got the first place. At first I didn't expect that we would win because we did something wrong. However, we still won it. How amazing God is! ( Just hope that the first place is a real first place ) 

Next week ( this coming week ) is my monthly test week. I'm stressed out. I haven't stduied what I'm supposed to study. I feel really stressed out. Ok, you may not see me studying due to the fact of stressing out but you'll see me begging my parents to let me go for jog. I love jogging. I jogged 9 rounds in the park today morning. It was pretty tiring. To conlude this jogging thing- I'm lack of stamina. 

Lately I've been talking to my school friends. I just found out that they are so amazing. Though sometimes I feel like they are doing something not really good ( as in always go outing ). Through talking to them, I just realised that everyone has his/ her own life story. This is how amazing people who made by God can be! 

You might wonder about the title that I named for this post. I actually obssess with TRIANGLE. A triangle is the best shape ever. T from the TRIANGLE also represents TIRED. Basically I want to tell you that I'm tired. 

This post should end here. I gotta pratise my guitar now! 

HAPPY TRIANGLE SUNDAY! 

( In case you don't know, to me everyday is a triangle day )

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Elisa Jean 

29.06.14 

1.32 p.m

Days before Sports Day

Hi peeps!

I'm so tired today because of what I did. I went marching this afternoon and then continued helping out the decoration team of my BLUE HOUSE.

Basically I'm a dull and unsociable person in school. I didn't talk much there. I feel like I should be more sociable. Is this called peer pressure? WOTS. I won't let this thing happen on me because the quote of mine is: Influence the world, do not let the world influence me. So, that's what I mean. Well, I don't mean that I'll continue to be like a stupid ( a mute person ), I'll try my very best to talk to people so that I can influence people. ( I know you might start thinking that I have such an unreal dream, but that is why I always try hard to do something that against my mind. )

I'm sort of tired about the decoration things for my BLUE HOUSE, because it is so tiring and there are a lot work to be done ( Though I'm not part of the deco team ). There is a scary thing that I experienced yesterday night. I heard someone kept inhaling the air ( like the person was suffocating ). I thought it was my sister who was suffering from the dreadful flu. But then, my sister was crying. And I was like, why on earth you want to disturb my sleep?

There are so many things we need to learn. But there is no way to learn finish? Is that true?

I haven't studied anything yet and next week I'm gonna sit for monthly test. I have to spend more time studying and do exercises. IT'S TIME FOR ME TO BE HARD WORKING!

God is always here with me.

Weekly blogging ends here.
Thanks for reading my weekly post.

Elisa Jean.
25.6.2014
7:52 p.m.

Typical Sunday

I just came back from my church. I had my lunch and it was great. I know that doesn't sound like it was a great lunch, because it wasn't that great, but it was still great.

Now I'm listening to a song - ALL OF ME. It is a song which lyrics is about a guy loves a girl very much. I won't write about how I feel about the song, because it will be super duper boring. Anyway, back to what I did in church just now. There, all of us watched a movie called FACING THE GIANT. I'm actually thought about how stupid I was, no I'm. Because I always feel like everything will be a negative result. Basically the movie is about how a group of high school students kept winning with the strength and the believe in God. Well, I believe that God has His very own way. 

Let's talk about investment. Okay, I'm mad about investment. I just don't know why I love INVESTMENT, this word so much. Despite doing investment with money, I prefer doing investment with my time. Time is the only thing I have, isn't it? So, recently I've been looking around like a paparazzi, to see and capture how people at my age invest their time. Obviously my targets are my classmates. Well, not much to say about what they always do with their time, they use it almost for studying, talking about life ( coupling? Marriage? LOL ) and etc. 

In my opinion, investment should be done at a right time. I agree that everyone can have their own lovely piece of story which is about going out with someone they love very much. However, time will be the only limiting factor. Because, this investment should be done at a very right time! Got it? 

Now, I've things to do. I feel really lazy to do my homework, because they are not as interesting as my textbooks. Besides studying, I have something more tiring - church things. I'm like don't know what to do but still have to do. I'm like I want to do, but I keep doing the wrong things. I just want to get over it - LET IT GO! 

Well, school things are not that tiring but tiring. I've got marching practice tomorrow. Besides school things,I gotta practise my guitar and piano. So, my guitar is like a kindergarten kid doing their maths. My piano is like a standard 3 kid doing standard 4 maths. I hope you got it. Because there is no way to describe it anymore. 

Oh yeah! One more thing, I just got back my Postal Bible Knowledge Quiz Result. I was super happy about it because I got a result which satisfied my target. Glory to The Lord. 

Like the movie - FACING THE GIANT, I would just say that God can do everything. So, just let Him do. 

Glory to The Lord. 

" The counsel of The Lord stands forever, the plans of His heart to all generations. " 

Psalm 33:11

Elisa Jean X

1:50 p.m

New URL makes me feel fresh and new. I'll continue to blog about things!

Today

Hi readers. I just wanna to apologize about my bad English. I've been trying hard, but there is a lot more to learn.

Well, thing about today is that I received all my test papers. Guess what? I feel like making my parents and myselft upset. All ten subjects don't really meet my target. Or I aim too high?

I really feel bad about my school too - to have such a student like me. I feel bad about God to have such a daughter like me. Well, let me adjust my mind. EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY, AFTER ALL! 

People around me are like changing or developing ( which word is best for this situation? ). I agree that people can change to what they want to be and they have their own choice. Sometimes, I just can't really think logically about their changes. It is so illogical! 

So, recently I find myself being logic sometimes ( I mean I don't have common sense and my IQ and EQ are low ). Like last week, I helped Emily ( my sister ) to think about a proposal about buying something. If you guys don't know what that something, just check out her blog ( plus, read her English too! You'll know why Elisa's EQ and IQ are low ). My task is to persuade both my parents to buy that for her. I was like - what? My parents never listen to me and you want me persuade them? Yea. I was kind of wanted to do but I won't succeed. 

Owh yea. I really feel guilty and uneasy about what I've done. I told a lie. I felt really sad, though I'm not really sad. Well, God is here and he listened to what I said. Well, gonna say sorry to that person.

Well, life is still go on. Currently, I'm reading Levititives. It's hard and not very interesting. I'll still go on reading it! 

Bye. 

19.06.14 

Thursday

Elisa Jean

5:03 p.m

June busy life.

Hi guys! I'm so tired today, but I want to write my blog post so badly. I want to tell you things that are important. Really important. The thing is about white and black.

I had my first blue house marching practice today. It was great and easy. I did some steps wrongly but others I got them right. The problem of mine is that I have to switch right to left. That is so bad. But it is OK with me, because I feel more comfortable with left. ( If you get what my this paragraph means. )

I'm sitting my history exam on this coming Saturday. To be honest, I love history, because studying history, I needn't do practices that are hard. Just like reading story book. I love reading story books.

Back to marching, I felt like I was a dull and dump there. I always feel like I can't mix with people. Well, all I think it is because I don't have the same thinking as theirs. So, I tried hard to talk to them or laugh around. Actually I don't think it is a big deal that I don't mix with people. Because everyone has his own thinking.

I feel like the people in the world only like people who are pretty and have good body shape ( For MALE? ).  There are people who only like people who are good looking ( For FEMALE? ).

Is that true?

 'For The Lord your God shows no partiality and accepts no bribes' - Deuteronomy 10: 17d

People, just stay close to God. You'll be a good man. You'll be a good woman. You'll be a good kid.

18.06.2014
Wednesday
Elisa Jean.
7:57 p.m.

Act or Wait?

I can't believe that today is the end of the holiday. I'm now here, writing my blog post. It is a norm that I always have my nap before dinner. So, you can guess, I just woke up from my nap.

Today is a Sunday. I went to the church in the morning, and went for the afternoon lunch ( sort of in a ball room, but not that formal one ) with my church people. I simply wore a tee- shirt and a skirt. I complained the skirt was too short because it was really short. So, I won't buy something like that any more. Never.

For the hot weather, I sweated throughout the whole session ( Sunday School ) in church. After all, it was just a period of time that I got my body water out and got new water in. That's all.

I finished the Deuteronomy which I found it was quite interesting. Because it stated people who sin should be stone to death or sentence to death. The whole book was about olden days' laws. I could see how people in the past they lived. They lived in a condition where only God was their God and they had to obey their only God's rules. If not, they would die. Because of not being loyalty to their Lord.

Much of the laws were about how people sinned through their actions, like adultery and murdering. Today I am thinking how people nowadays sin through their thinking ( Exp: Looking lustfully at a beautiful girl / A beautiful girl smiles lustfully at a guy ). So, then I kept thinking how I have sinned. Then, I felt so bad.

It is cool for people to think and think about things that are hard to be thought. However, it is really hard to actually act it out. Like, I want to be a super duper good pianist. So, I think that I should practise 2 hours a day so that it is enough and I will get used to one music piece and able to express the whole song. However, there is no action, the 2 hours end up being used for taking a nap before dinner. You, see the importance of action? Therefore, I tell myself to be still and determined in the way that I can discipline myself and use my time with the actions that have in my mind but not yet in my body.

For the whole year, I have been in a lonely mood. The day before yesterday, I closed myself in my room and listened to two songs - MR. LONELY by Bobby Vilton and THE LONELY by Christina Perri. The melodies were sad and the lyrics were as lonely as they were. Back to me, I stopped the whole extra activities in school because I just want have a peaceful days in 2014. And then I felt so happy about the my decision. Thanks God for that.

Ok, I know I'm very random because I always fail to write or speak something in a sequence. So, I wish you understand what I meant.

Thanks for reading my blog.
You know, God is still loving me ( see I'm now free from what I don't like, at least ) and he loves you!

Elisa Jean
7:20 p.m
15 June 2014

Different.

Lately I've been lazy. I feel lazy doing things, for example, studying history because I'm having test after the holidays end, playing guitar and etc. All that I can conclude I have used almost the half of the day watching TV. The dramas were really great. The feeling of watching dramas is like reading good books, I can't help watching till the end of the whole dramas.

Cool thing about today is that Emily went for church choir. I've never thought that she wanted to sing for the choir. Neither do I. To be honest, I don't like singing. I never like singing. The moment you want me to sing I'll sing for you, but I think you won't gonna use your ears to listen what I'm singing. My vocal is really weird. So, I think Emily is brave that she dares to go for it. I think she starts liking vocal? Haha. That's great, because having passion for one music instrument is really a cool thing.

Yesterday we went to shopping in Paradigm Mall. I didn't like going there because I might be meeting my friends, which I would hide at a place so that they wouldn't see me. Back to the shopping session, first we went to UNIQLO and my mum bought some stuffs. And then dad and Emily managed to buy shoes. At last before we wet home, Emily bought a skirt.

I don't know what people at my age do for their lives. I do things that are stupid and crazy. Like yesterday I went jogging with my dad and Emily, then we ran 2.7 km. That was an improvement of mine because my stamina is low. But then I still managed to run.

I just came back from the church. I met my church friends and had Sunday School ( sort of ). I enjoyed learning things about life because we have to learn how to live a real LIFE, a MEANINGFUL life. For the aim of one life have to be the correct aim so that one's life can be meaningful. That's what I got for Sunday School ( sort of ) today. And through your life, you'll learn how to go through ups and downs. Only then, becomes a strong man. COOL?

Anyway, now I'm gonna end my post. Next week I'll be writing something cool. Haha. I wonder how cool it will be.

Thanks for reading.
8.6.14
1:51 p.m

The Inside and Outside

I've always wanted to blog about something that I've learnt.

INSIDE & OUTSIDE
It's easy to blog about things. I love writing but I don't write good. I'm sort of fed up about people telling me that my English is such a shame of mine. I admit that I don't have a good English, and I can't speak English.

OUTSIDE
Last weekends I went for a church ' camp'. There were talks about how to sing correctly, how to be a good chairman in church service and the Christian year plus the importance of singing hymns. I feel thankful about all the talks because I learnt a lot. I learnt that playing musical instruments can be one of the way to glorify God's name. So, I really have to practise my guitar and piano hardly.

INSIDE
Well, the whole feeling of participating the camp is like ups and downs. I'm scared about people talking to me. Even though a HALO is dreadful enough. I feel like the lesser people talking to me, the better I feel. This is a  really serious problem. I can't bear with the fear, can I? So every time I just tell myself that it is okay to talk to people and there is nothing scary. It is because God is always with me. Thanks God.

OUTSIDE
I don't know how people look at me. Well, I think I look scary and dreadful. I don't look friendly, do I? Well, I don't care. I smile every time when people has got the eye contact with me. Haha.

INSIDE AND OUTSIDE
I closed facebook for 2 months. It was a great thing not having facebook but the messenger only. You don't get to know what your friends in facebook do. For the two months I feel like disconnected to the whole and that is a good feeling. Because nowadays people can't be disconnected to the world. The world needs them? Or they need the world?

OUTSIDE
I went to shopping last week but I didn't manage to buy the book that I want to buy. SAD. I always think that reading books is a pathway to the success. Obviously what I think is more important than reading books is that reading Bible and be a righteous man. Only then you can succeed. I went shopping and brought back mango's magazine. I flipped through them and amazed with the sight and the feeling that the models could present.

INSIDE
I've always been dreaming about being a fashion designer. This is because I feel like insecure when I don't have a pretty clothes on my body. This is really sad. And I always wanted to be a model. But my height tells me that I can't. However both these unreal dreams come to an end because I feel like I have to know about laws and the laws that God has set since the first day of the world. Due to the fact that I really want to be a lawyer or even a politician, I read about the deuteronomy. Well, I haven't finished so yea, still a lot more to  go. Despite the fact that I'm lack of understanding in laws, my English is not good too. And I always know that God will make this as a testimony of mine.

HARDWORKING TIME
It is hard to get your whole body up to work after a long rest. Basically I set today is the day to start the whole things up. I planned what to do for today. Well, now I feel like I'm writing this blog post with my shameless poor English. I'm gonna be hardworking. Let this point starts today.

GOD'S WORDS
God's words are what we really need to live by. Let's God be our God who care about all the things.

Thanks a lot for reading my blog post.
Elisa Jean.
4/6/2014
Wednesday
8:02 a.m

Discovering the life.

Hi guys. It has been a long time I didn't write blog post. I just do some quick review about the reasons of me stop writing for weeks. 

I stopped writing because I felt like I were writing things which were about my life, without connecting them with God. And those were my sins and stupid thoughts about myself. I was self centered. I was glorifying my own name, Elisa Jean.

I don't know if you are a Christian or no, but I know I'm a Christian who really needs to do what god wants me to do. I first started writing this blog was because I felt the love from God that time. I named it Joy and Love. And my URL is joyful-jean.blogspot.com. The whole purpose is to let people ( my readers) to know more about the all mighty god. However, lately, I've not been doing what my fist and only aim was. I was blogging about my luxurious life, my dreamful life, my future without God, money and etc.

I want to thank god about what he has done on me. I personally want to say this is the glory of god and his grace is always here with me. AMEN. 

I'll continue writing blog post so as to use use what god has given me to strengthen myself and a good person and glorify his name. Only his name.

Thank you.

Love you guys.