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Hi there. Today is a Sunday. I'm not very happy as tomorrow is Monday. Tomorrow I'm gonna go to school and do tons of homework that I'll never finish.

I'm writing this topic CLOSE, because I feel like I wanna close this blog.

You may be asking why am I so random?

I'll tell you the reason personally if you come and ask me.

Thanks for paying much attention on my blog. I'm so happy to have friends, family and people who I don't even know, reading my blog, having the curiosity on my life.

All I want to tell each of us is that God is love. Today is Easter Day. Nearly 2000 years ago, Jesus died on the cross for you and I ( all of us ). The grace of God shows the great great love of Him. I really wanna let you know Christ is your only way. He gives you strength and faith that your life can't live without him. You are loved, people!

I've wrote hundreds of blog posts on this blog since my first year of high school. And now I'm in my last year of high school. So, the first momentum of writing the first blog post was that time when I felt that being a Christian was a happy and joyful thing. I should live a joyful life. Therefore, I named this blog, Joy and Love. And in between these years, obviously I've changed the title but the themes were all around JOY AND LOVE. I named this website url joyful-jean. Jean is me and this Jean is joyful.

I really hope you understand what I message I really want to deliver to you. It is all about Joy and Love. Without God, you'll never ever find real love and real joy. There will never be peace in your heart.

Lastly, I really want you to know that God loves you. He can rescue you from a super bad situation.

GOD LOVES YOU

Thanks for reading my blog no matter when.
This is the last post.

With Love and Joy,
ALEGRIA Y AMOR,
Elisa Jean.

20.04.2014
Sunday
6:40 p.m

Alegría y Amor

AI've been in a really sad and serious state that I wanna give up what I passionate at. I have such a feeling that no one is encouraging me while my friend Yen Ling, listened to the stories of mine. I feel great after all and thank god for placing Yen Ling for playing a role as my friend.

I was depressed and made myself not to waste the precious time I have. I did what I was supposed to do. The week days went perfectly and I nearly finished all my homework. That's amazing because I never bother my homework. Study is more important that homework?

I don't really score well in my previous exam. I was very sad that my History got really really low marks. I rated it as FAIL. You see that's how bad I was or am. Chemistry was one of the worst too. Besides, the nation language ( Bahasa Melayu) has made me like a mad person. Writing an essay with thousands words makes me feel like I wanna vomit. My life now is full of studies and essays. 

After all, I thank god for giving me such a life. Today is Good Friday. Jesus died on the cross 2000 years ago. Can you believe that, WE CAN'T LIVE A PERFECT LIFE LIKE WHAT JESUS DID BUT WE JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS LIKE WHAT PEOPLE LIKE ME SHOULD HAVE DIED LIKE THAT WAY. After all, I won't say my life is not good. Because it is too good. Such a comfortable life.

Good Friday, I was having my dinner with all my family members presented. I'm so grateful about it. It's been quite a long time we didn't gather together. The scene of family members gather together will hardly to be seen after I graduated my high school. Thanks God for this year. 

Now, just wanna make an appreciation to my blog reader. I've designed a card and written something on it. And now, I wanna give out. Remember there is only one. So if you are interested, just make a comment on this post and I'll give it to you, if I meet you. This card is only given to reader who is able to meet me regularly and yea. So, write a comment. It's not vey nice but it's nice to give others something. 

Here is the card. 

Just a pice of paper. 

And here are something that I designed and only for my personal usage.

Say Something ( I'm giving up on you )

Hi there. It has been 6 days I didn't blog. Time flies quickly. But I'm still the little Elisa.

I feel like I need to give up on something.

Recently I've been doing some designs for something, but the arts I've produced didn't satisfy the client ( HAHA it's not a suitable word but I don't know what word is more suitable ). To be honest, I'm very sad with my design. I start to lose the creativity of art and being rigid in the world. I feel like I have no more passion in designing. I feel bad and really sad.

I love design things and drawing. Putting the images together and doodling something abstract have been something that I love to do. I first started drawing when I was 9 years old because my twin wanted to learn drawing. I'd never like drawing before that, because every time when there was a drawing competition, I'd loose. I'd never won any prize. Even though I've learnt drawing before, I'm never a good artist.

The moment being rejected by people... I feel really sad. I didn't cry or do any actions, but I know my heart is crying. Because I really love designing things.

Therefore, I start thinking is that my art is too abstract that no one will appreciate it? I guess so. I'm not saying or lifting myself up that I'm a very artistic person. I'm never one.

Till this moment, I feel like I want to give up on designing. Very soon, my ambitions, graphic designer and fashion designer, will be out of my TO- BE- LIST. I'm saying goodbye.

Maybe I'll never draw again. Or I'll.

Because now I feel useless drawing for people to appreciate. Sometimes people think that is just a piece of sh*t or a garbage.

I don't have determination. How can I continue my dream?

Say Something

The First Art.

I end my designing mind with this drawing. 

I'm saying goodbye, say something I'm giving up on you.

Elisa Jean 

15.04.2014

Tuesday

2.40 p.m.

Falling in Love

Think about this, every day you wake up and then start to plan your to do list of the day. And the first thing that comes to your mind is what you really love to do. For instance, you may think about go jogging with the person you love, do add maths or upgrade the level you are in the game. And everyday you have the feeling that I must do this thing and it is not a burden to you, nor a habit of yours, but it is something that you have passion in it.

I name this falling in love. True thing. If you fall in love with someone, you'll never want to end a conversation with him or her. It's also true that you won't stop thinking about the person. You'll never be enough with the time you have with that person because you will sacrifice your time to the person or even life.

OK. I've been too dramatic. Well, these few things are actually the sign of falling in love with someone. To me, I have this sign too. ( You may start thinking is that Elisa Jean has got a crush ) I seriously fall in love with music. I love music. ( CONFESSION ? )

Once my friend told me that she personally agreed the statement NO MUSIC NO LIFE. Sadly, I told her I DON'T LIKE MUSIC. Well, the statement no music no life is like really serious case. I think nobody can life without God, but people can still live without music. You know. However, the precious thing about music is that you can't write it on a paper. You know you can't see it or watch it or read it, because hear the music is the true meaning of music.

I thank God for the ears He has given to me. At this point, I'm thinking about what if one day, God takes away my ear? Or my hands? Can I continue my life without one of them? Seriously, can I? If I have no ears, I won't be able to appreciate the amazing music. If I have no hands, I won't be able to play music. No, I can't do anything relate to the music. NO MUSIC NO LIFE? Is that true?

One thing that is really important about what the Revent in my church said last Sunday was time shows how much you love someone. For example, you love someone. You'll definitely spend time with the person and help the person whenever he/she needs you. You'll not think twice or think once, and just do whatever you can do for the person. This is the action of love, I suppose.

Amazing love. Love is amazing. No one can deny it because it is a fact. To me, passion is one of the sign of love. If you have passion on something, you may be falling in love with that thing. Because you start to have the desire ( lust? haha. The word is toooooo serious, man) to do that thing. In my view, don't ever do something that are not good for yourself, because it will hurt yourself and others.

I find out that I just have the passion on music which is very bad. The books are the burdens of mine. Well, I'll tell myself to love them. LOVE.

Lastly, the message of this post is that I want you to know that God actually spends time on you and takes care of you. He loves you in this way. Maybe you don't have any feeling, but think that you are here on the earth amazingly being raised up by your parents or whoever, and you get the chance to read my blog because you have eyes and you know how to surf the net and type the words out. It's His grace. So, what we can react to this love is that spend more time with God in the way of reading Bible, praying and sharing his good news.

Thanks God for everything, and thanks for reading my blog post.

Elisa Jean.
9.4.14
WED
2:50 p.m

New

Hi there! I'm here blogging again. I don't like the feeling of blogging because I blog when I'm lazy. I'm lazy to do the works that I'm supposed to do. Anyway, now I feel extraordinary new.

NEW? What's it about?

Let me tell you. My guitar went hospital again. Still, there was a string snapped while I was having my guitar lesson. Imagine, something loud suddenly was being heard and you found out the thing was just in front of your heart. That's what my guitar the memory of my guitar gave to me. Anyway, the guitar strings were fixed with new strings. ( For your information, I got all the strings changed because my teacher suggested me to do so, plus, I don't want any of them snaps again.)  The strings are new now. And my guitar is now beside me!

COOL? I feel new. Besides, I bought a pants and  a top yesterday. You know, since I'm putting on my weight, my old clothes can't fit in with my body. Oh dear. This makes me feel like I should get a normal routine- exercise more!

Well, my life now is full of fun. You know, studying, reading lots of books that I wanna read, playing musical instruments, eating and also jogging.

I feel like my life is so good.

Apart from that, I also learnt many things from the Bible. Like what my friend, Tze- Ning said, we should have the thirst towards God's words. I should have that.

Here are some my photos, slowly being released...

Felicity!

Ignore my weird face. 

Thanks for reading my blog. 

Elisa Jean 

6.4.14

8:20 a.m

Rest

I deleted my twitter account yesterday. I felt relief and peaceful in mind. I did that because the internet has set me in a bad condition. Or you can also say that I chose to online and all that. Well, I admit that.

It's a really hard thing for one to stop their desire. 

Believe me. 

The moment you stop letting your desire to control you, you are gonna be successful in life.

What's success?

Hmm...

Let me have a rest with the internet, when I'm successful, I'll tell you what is success.

You may have an answer in your heart or may not, but I know that since you have been reading my blog post, you are now curious with my answer.

I'll like you to wait for me to be successful. 

Well, I don't really know the meaning of success.

The sun always rises on the same side of the sky, human's days can be different everyday. 

LIFE IS FULL OF COULOURS, BUT NOW FULL OF INTERNET.

Let me rest.

Thanks for reading.

Elisa Jean 

3.4.2014

Thursday

3:50p.m

Cupboard

Hi there. Today I don't feel old. Well, I'm still gonna share about what is in my mind (what I've learnt ).

To be honest, I've never liked going to school. For me, school is a place where I need to face teachers, classmates and lots of knowledge problem. This shows that I really need to improve my social skill and my learning skill.

Well, since I have been in Malaysia public school for 6+5= 11 years, and this year is my last year, I look forward to have a new learning skill. If you don't know what I mean, I'm gonna tell you that I actually start learning things from my surrounding. Like when people smile at you, you smile back. And that's a kind of art? Yea, I guess so. So despite learning things from books, I've decided to learn from things not from books. (My English is bad, so just ignore whatever you don't understand) 

I stayed back yesterday to do Biology model with the rubbish family. Well, we got it done at 3:00 p.m. I'm happy to have group mates like them. Well, I also encountered something. Something that's related to the cupboard. I ain't writing it down, but I'll let my encouter stay in my head and remember it. Thanks god for the encounter, I learnt that human should always obey god's rules. This is the point.

SPM. The worst thing ever? No. Socializing is worse. Well, SPM doesn't scare me last year, but this year. I pretty afraid that the day I got my SPM result, I'm gonna cry or sucide (well, I won't of that, one because life is precious and everything is under god's control. He always prepares everyone the best. His grace is always enough for all of us! ). That's why I've started doing some revision and trying to pull our myself from the social media. Sometimes I feel like I wanna online but I can't because the accounts are logged. PEACE. Without wasting times on that I feel like the whole day is a useful day, a productive life. This makes me think of go against desires. Well, teenagers or old people or adults or children should learn how to go against desires. 

I'm gonna end my post so as to do something more meaningful. 

So, bye.

Salted fish.

Elisa Jean.

1.4.2014

Tuesday

2:05