Bello! ( addicted to minions :O )
So happy to get to write a post here! Recently, no, not recently is it has been a long time I want to find out what is the use of me. ME! Yes. I thought back about what I'd done for the past few years. If you are my friend, definitely you find a different Elisa. I have become very easy to be angry, like to boss around, talk back about people, judge people, tell lies, proud of what I have and low- self esteem.
These few characters that I have (or no longer have), has made me become mad and sad all the time. I ask myself, why am I so useless? I can't do anything (couldn't). I still haven't found what is my ability, talent.
Believe or not, I jealous everyone around me. This unwanted "hobby" I have to change. This jealousy leads to many problems. I can't count them because there are more than 100 to be counted. Why jealous? Because comparison. I always compare myself with you. Yes, you. I just don't know why I always compare myself with you. That must be Satan who let me become like this.
Being a human that created by God, I ain't really do what He wants me to do. I am sure about what he wants me to do, but I hasn't done the work. That is sad. I tell you jealousy can make a person become mad, stupid, silly and unfaithful with God.
Through who we have gained access by faith into this grace in which now we stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
( Romans 5: 2- 5)
Through reading, I realize the world is all about God's love. He gives us everything, he gives us the chance to choose what we want to be. But I've chosen something that is no pleased Him. I'd made facebook, instagram, twitter, as my God. This media makes me feel that I'm very fat, I'm unwanted in this world, I'm stupid, no body loves me, no one cares about me. Yes, there may be no one cares me, but indeed, God loves me. He doesn't disappoint me, but what I'm going through is actually what he wants me to experience. What I'm going through is how he wants to train me become a successful person. This successful doesn't mean that I've money or best result in the world. However, he gives me the faith that believe Him.
Thanks God I know I have to learn from His son, Jesus.
That's why I'm here.
XOXOXO
Elisa Jean
p,s: The tenses I use may be very confusing because God is a God that is not under the control of time. And, my grammar itself is very bad. Sentence structure may not be correct because my English is not as pro as yours. :D