Thursday, November 22, 2012

Think before you do.

The days and the years are almost gone every second and minute. I'm still the one, the little one, I thought. Maybe that was something that would not change. Everything is changing, and maybe I have also changed. The childlike and the childish, maybe I'm the one who still has. I hate becoming old and ready to think. I always tell myself, not to be childish, but be COOL. You get what I mean?

Yeah. Childish, childish and childish. That is what I get from the others. Maybe you agree with them or you agree with me, probably, I agree I'm childish. I don't think I am childish because I think me myself is a child. Yeah, I know that is weird enough for you to laugh at me.

I'm sure there is someone who hates me and dislikes me. However, I can tell you, I don't mind them. Really, I do mind. I mind how people look me and how they hate me. I don't know why I've this awkward feeling and thinking. Ughh.. How can I stop thinking of those things?

Being a christian, I need to obey what God says. But what God says are really difficult to complete. You may want to advise me not to follow what God says, but I can tell you, with God, everything can happen. Every moment you are safe and you are happy with joys. Yea.. I should follow what God says and always being the happy ones. But not feeling bad with what I've done, because God tells me think before you do.

Yea..

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Real and Unreal

Hi everyone.
Today, I'll share something about real and unreal. It's a nice topic and I've thought a lot of things to write in this share.

Real and Unreal.
What do you think about real? Real is a thing that is actually FACT ed. Like I'm a girl or I've 5 fingers on my left hand. So, what about unreal? That is of course, something that does not been confirmed. Just like me, I am stupid, but maybe that is not really I'm stupid.

To share about God's words, we need a Bible. Without Bible, actually we are talking crabs. A person like me, I seldom read Bible ( I felt very guilty about it ). Therefore, maybe I can't really talk or discuss about God's heaven and all the goods of Him and all the real stories in the Bible.

I would like to say sorry that my laziness and my forgetful always let me abandon the important of reading God's words. For me, it is not enough that we just read the bible without knowing what is it talking about or what is God trying to tell us. I am strength less to be determined to Everyday Bible Reader. However, I'm trying to. Let God helps me. Amen.

Yes, Bible. Anyone here is a Buddhist? Or any other religious? If yes, let me ask you a question, do you think your religion is real? Yes or No? Secondly, do you know why are you worshipping your God? Another question, is your God is a real God?

Let you think about it.
Next passage I'll write about something that are really interesting to share it them with you.
Perhaps, I will read a chapter of the Bible and knowing what God is telling me.  

Monday, November 5, 2012

I didn't do

Hi there! I am here super hyper and super energetic. Yea! The month November is quite a nice month for me. And I have a lot of work to do within this and next month. Every of you must have gone to somewhere for travelling or visiting or maybe shopping. Well, I'm the one who still stay at home and reading the novels. I am quite sure that my English language has improved due to my hard work of reading. (Y)

Before the holidays started, I had planned for me myself a lot of things to complete. There is one I did, no, I can't say I did, but I haven't finished. That is reading the bible. I am quite lazy with it. Reading a absolubely thick bible is a very tough job. Some more, I am trying to read the English's version. Yea, you know that is to improve my English language. Both me and Emily has the same problem. Urgh. That is really weird and terrible.

Communicate with others is what I haven't done. Talking with the others by using English language. You know how odd is it? I am really ashamed with it. >.<
First of all, I have tried to speak English with my tuition teacher. She is quite patient to hear my BROKEN ENGLISH with lots of Chinese accent.

I will end with here. Lets pray to the Lord and ask Him how can I due with this problem.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

November

Hi guys!
I am so happy that b'cause it is the month November!
Last month, I was a bit busy with my studies. Because they were too annoyed. Yea, annoyed.

The exams were quite scary and I was too nervous. Till the world was going to the end. Yea. My english paper was terrible. I can't even imagine it after the exam. So nervous.

Well, I have now been forgetting it. With much of happiness and careless, I've been totally enjoying my holidays with books, tv programmes, drawing, caligrafING, playing with my sister and brother. And of course, playing piano. I am awfully presenting it in front of the piano teacher. I thought she got a big shock! I was like, " Is it OK? Or I need to play it again?". Yea. It was TERRIBLE. So, lastly the teacher said I could play Grade 2. Yea, theory is Grade 2. However, my piano's skill is LEVEL 2. I felt bad with that. Urgh.

Here are my drawings. I drew some cards and I was not willing to present anyone, because I found that they are too amazing and awfully well presented.


Cheese :D 
This is something like post card. 




The theme Christmas Day. 
I drew this because I am so excited with this year's Christmas Day!





Yea! I like this piece :D




HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Hehe, I'm so happy although today is not my birthday :O





Ribbon.
This is not the hottest one, but the coldest one.
Nobody like it.
But I like.





The sample for all of the arts. 
This is the one I've used a lot of effort to think, draw and decorate.
So, this might be the most perfect one.



Yea. They are quite nice. If you wish I could draw you a piece, why don't you comment. And maybe, I will be willing to deal with it.
Thank God that you have given me this talent ( although you may not agree with me that this is a talent ).


Saturday, October 20, 2012

继续

各位觉得很意外吧!书写华语绝对不是我的强项,但为了进步我的华语程度,我坚持要写华语文章。

身为一个华人,我们是不是应该把持着自己的语言,华语呢?这对我来说不重要,因为人有自己的选择权,我们不必要帮别人选或逼他们选。常常我们都会因为守旧而忽略了一些重要的事。那我就是其中的一个。守旧也就是指说一个人一直把守着以前的观念而不愿意去改变。往往有很多事情我们都阻止不了自己在做一件事情的时候守住旧的思想及概念。

身为一个不厉害读书的孩子,我也时常守旧。常常认为男比女更好。我也常常埋怨上帝为什么把我成为一个女的。但是往往我都想起我的出现是上帝安排的。想到这里,我就无法在埋怨下去了。

人生无法重新再来。后在当下的我们应该好好地把握时间及时机,好让我们还没有完成的事情继续及不反悔的做下去。

别忘了上帝一直在看顾你。

Thursday, October 18, 2012

The things that I don't care.

I am very happy as PMR exam is over. Therefore, I tell myself that the next BIG exam will be SPM. I know that is tiring when you say it during a free day. In my state, the most important thing is to be hard working! Once I told myself to relax, my mind will relax although I have stopped it for long time ago.

Last two days was my brother, Eric's birthday. We had such a big cake to eat which was really nice and awesome. We didn't celebrate the birthday too big as my two sisters were not here with us. Lets talk about my brother.

Eric is 10- year- old. He is tall, I think. However my relatives say he is short. In my state, I think he'll probably grown taller than me, so I assume that he is very tall. As a boy, he didn't talk so much. This lead me a big problem. That is I don't know what he is thinking about. This is quite frustrated. Everything he will just keep it in his mind and don't share with us. 

I didn't care him too much maybe because I think he is such a BURDEN?? Being a daughter, I can't forget to study. But being a sister, neither I teach him nor guide him. Once the exam is coming nearer and nearer, I forget who I am but remember what the book is talking about. 

I scolded him a lot in the past few years. But within this two years, I refused to talk to him as I scared any bad things will happen to me. In the past, when every time I scolded him, he would  break into tears and shut  the door then lock himself in the room. I scold him because I couldn't stand on his laziness with his homework and his project! The last minute work isn't the best. He always did his project the day before the due date. Being a sister, I scolded him every time. When I scolded him, I would be scolded by my sisters. They would say I shout too loud or I false Eric to do his project. 

Because of not getting BOMS from my sisters, now I refuse to teach him. For instance, my mind want to teach him but suddenly there is a thought tells me that my exam is more important. However, sometimes I also think that my mum cares more about him and doesn't care about me. Here is a real example. The week before my PMR exam started, my mum kept telling me to teach him Bahasa Melayu. This burdened me a lot.  I was quite hot temper as I didn't listen at all. The more important exam was what I had but not his!

Yet, I found that he was really a good kid when I commanded him to help me take this and that. Am I funny?
Haha. I just want to laugh at myself as I being so funny.

Sometimes you don't care. Sometimes you really care. That is because your mind is not clear. 
God prepared the road for me to go and there must be something different with the others. HE wants us to follow what he has prepared so I accept what he has given.
Lets pray to the Lord that we have a happy family!

Friday, August 31, 2012

Broken English

This post is just a random post! I write this post because I've been irritated by the English language. I admit that my brain has been too late to respond others' words in English! What a sad case!

Back to my tittle. Broken English is the common mistake that most of the Malaysian have made. I am one of them too! Therefore, I've been correcting  myself all the time. However I can't correct the grammar or sentence structure that I had spoken. That is terrible.

To stay away from broken English, the main key to help it is speak to those whose mother tongue is English language. But! I am the one who is embarrassed to talk to others in English! That's quite bad, I know. Being a friend who sit behind my to "English" 's friends didn't take a proper sentence with them in English before. I know I should try but the only problem is I SCARED. I SCARED THEY LAUGHED AT ME. I SCARED MY PRONOUN IS WRONG. I SCARED EVERYTHING.

English, you make me feel proud.
English, you make me feel embarrassed.
English, why the whole world needs you?


Saturday, August 25, 2012

Take a break

The school holiday is not long enough for me to take a rest. Reading books, watching television programmes, playing iPod are common things that I do throughout the whole holiday. Shopping with my siblings was really enjoyable programme during this one week holiday. I was not tired at all, but joy to spend time with my family members, because they are coooool. Haha. Anyway, I also spent time to study. I love study! PMR is just around the corner and I still sitting in front of this big computer! What a waste of time! I tell myself, never mind, because I should take a break!

I don't like writing as well as writing a blog post. It is because I need to force myself to write in English! I hate English, don't I tell you before? My English is really weird and you dare not to understand a simple sentence I wrote. Just weird! Ergh! The fear of talking English is really a weird feeling. I just hope that one day, people could just speak Mandarin! Don't you think it is better? Speaking or writing English, you need to be aware of the grammar you've written. If you made such a small mistake, you would probably been laughed  by others. Please ensure that speaking mandarin is better than English. Chinese is easy to understand and the sequence of word is not important as everyone will still understand what you're talking about. I wish there is a day when everyone in the world start speaking mandarin. What an amazing world it is!

Now, lets talk about the trip to Singapore a few day ago. It was terrible at first because the long queue in the traffic jam. My father got frustrated with it and started to say it was not a good day to go to Singapore. My mother then get a little bit of disappointment and told my  father the condition would turn.

After 5 hours, we arrived Singapore. It was really wonderful as I thought Singapore was an amazing place. But this upset me a lot. Singapore's atmosphere is really alike as Penang. While we were crossing the road to our destination - Econ Inns, I saw a lot of rubbish beside the road. This was really unbelievable. After we have arrived our INNS at China Town, we settled down everything and started finding restaurant to feed our biggy tummy.

We then crossed the road and I heard a lot of noise with Mandarin. Unexpectedly the accent was not Singaporean's, but the Chinese from China. Then, we got into a big restaurant which was not very high class. The very astonishing scene I saw then. I saw an European touching the BEER GIRL's body. ILLL! What  a world now is! After the dinner, I have been told by my sisters that they say the European touched the girl for 3 times. OMG! What is awful world now is!

Then the nest day, we went back home.

Friday, July 13, 2012

English

Hi there! Every time I write a post may cause me a lot of time to think what should I write and why I write. Every post is a train of my english sentence structure and grammar. I find that it is really hard to write an essay neither long nor short! English? What is the purpose to learn english? English is an international language, I can't escape to learn it! What a bad thing!

I am scared that one day the whole world is laughing at me because of my grammar wrong! That must be really bad. I have spent my time to study this language, trying the hardest and doing the best. I just want to improve my english. But everything wasn't going that way, I am still stop at the point, timid to speak a word of english.

So what is the steps should I take to improve my english? Any ideas? Hope there is one day I could speak and write well english!

Saturday, June 23, 2012

WHY DO WE NEED COMMUNICATION?

Hello everyone!
Don't you think I'm crazy? Maybe, you should say I have mad before I have borned!
I must say it now --- I apologize of my english grammar and the sentence strucure that I've writen before and after!

Exam is coming!!! Exam is coming!!!
That's all in my mind! I feel to tired and I get stressed!
" What do you suspose a 5A's ( UPSR) student to get all A's in PMR?"
I am going to do that! For my own good, and my parent's FACE, so I've to do that!

As I said just now, my grammar is really weird! Or you can even say that my languageS are weak!
I can't acheive to get any A of them!

I hope English is not an international's language! I must be really pleased if that is real!
Well, I am now doing something that you might think I am wasting my time or, you can say I am  CHILDISH?
I read Reader Digest almost every night!! Checking the meaning with a big dictionary, playing the english words ( speak english with emily (the tall girl) ) everyday!

I HATE LANGUAGE!
I am asking these almost everyday--- Why do we need communication? Why do we need to learn English? Why my english is so weak? Why am I so stupid?

I must tell you why I asked the first question!
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WHY I ASKED " WHY DO WE NEED COMMUNICATION?"

I study in a place where full of my books. I talk to books and the books talk to me! I don't even have any time to talk to my calssmates! Every week day, I sit in my place. Emily sits beside me and she is full of words ( She is a BIG MOUTH). She talks to another's side friends everyday! I seldom talk in school or even at home! WHY DO WE NEED COMMUNICATION?


Haha..
Are you gonna to answer my question?
All the best! Hope you can answer my question!

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Heritage

The HERITAGE

I just came back from Bintulu, my lovely hometown. Yes! Really lovely.
This picture I took in the early morning, about 6:30 a.m. 
I really enjoyed the scenery and I really appriciate scenery.
I don't bother is Bintulu a town or a countryside, 
I know that Bintulu is really a heritage!

This trip had really taught me a lot!
Very unfortunately, my grandmother injured before the week we came back.
So, what I did was talk to her or you can say "play" with her.
I appriciated God gave me my grandparents. 
They love me and I love them.
But sometimes, I really don't bother what are they thinking about.
I am so selfish!!!!!!

Bintulu has became a town, that I really hate it!
The smelly car smoke with full of carbon monoxide,
the cigarette smoke with full of nicotine and sulphur dioxide.
I am enough!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Confident

Joyful is the word! Yes.. I was being very busy recently. No time to update my bog. Maybe it is not necessary to update it -.-''. Last week I was sitting for test! You know how scary was that and yes! Especially English and Melayu language! They was too hard @.@. For me languages are not easy! My sister came back last month and I and my younger sister spend good time with her very much! We enjoyed ourself! Truly morning will no longer be there, my sister had to go to university to start her new semester for studying! What I am going to talk about is I am lack of confident!!! It must be a bad news for me that I am always do something that is full of sins. Talking and doing are the main problems I faced all the time. That is also the reason I lack of CONFIDENT! What I faced all the time is, I often scare that everyone look down on me. I am really sensitive with it! My sister's find are all keen on study. Me, a simple, not smart, short person always think that they were all look down at me!! I was like keep quiet at all. Now I know I am not lack of confident but I am just scared!!! The main thing I have learned is GOD IS THE ONE WHO GIVE US CONFIDENT! So, if you have no confident, please pray to God and he will send you the power to do!!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Peace and Joy

It is happy to get to know the words of God. The Japan tsunami was really awful and yes, it was really a sad case. 2011 sadness case. This case get almost everyone pray and I really pray for they all! The sadness had come though the Japanese, their country had been destroyed, and most Japanese had been died because of the terrible tsunami. As a happy and enjoyable Malaysian, I haven't discovered the unpeaceful of the world. Because I am just a young flower inside a safe beautiful pot under the shelter. I seldom thanks for the peace that God have given to me, but I always thanks about I am very intelligent. Thanks for the peaceful that God has given to me.

Monday, March 12, 2012

The TIMES

It was the begining of the holidays' week. Everything seen very normal. I hate myself as I always do somethings that made God angry. I am very tired. I just want to get a rest as I remember when I was very young or when I was just a little child ridding bicycle around the neighborhood. The way I think about the world is just to enjoy but not to do what I suppose to do. I hope I am just a little kid playing and listening to what my mom and dad say. Trying all my best to watch the television whole the day and eat ice-cream every Sunday with my auntie. What a good days I have. Now, there are no time to do those things. They are to heavy to carry or I have left out the enjoyment and the happiness spend time with my lovest family members. Now, I like to use calculate what people have given to me. And no enjoyment and I don't want the happiness. I am so sad about myself. All the best.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Change

Hi there. The February month has gone... Time goes faster than what I think. As you see, the world is changing!!! I, myself cannot let myself go for my change. I should change change change! Let me think change what.. 1. Let me change my stupid altitude. 2. Let me read bible although I am not going to take Bible Study in next year.(MAYBE) 3. Don't be so boastful!! 4. Not to be selfish!! 5. Try to communicate more. 6. Try to reduce the money I use (-.-) 7. Spend more time on excersice. 8. Spend more time to talk to my family's memberS. 9. Plan before DO! 10. The most important and most unchangeable: Clean my TABLE!! :D May myself can change become better.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Escaping

Hi! February is in! I am still in holidays mood. Sometimes, I am thinking about my result and my studies. I believe I am not very keen in studies. However, after a long time, I have changed my mind. I relize that I am too LAZY. Besides that, I like to escape of everthing that are difficult, or you can say I am too timid. After the trip to Australia and Bitntu, Sarawak, I found that communication is very important. Communicate with others that you don't know or you know, or who you scared. Escaping is the only things that you may use as a method. However, escaping is the most useless method and it cannot solve the problems. People, don't escape of any problem, or you are trying to do a stupid!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

God is Love

Accept

Everything is happened well as it all created by God.
Exam is coming.
Any result I can also accept.

Thanks God because I am still here.
Thanks God, I have a good family.
Thanks God, I can go to school.
Thanks God, I have no sick, although sometimes is sick but not to heavy.


Monday, February 6, 2012

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

PROMISE

Elisa Pau :D 
I am joy to become a christian.
Am I a real christian? I asked myself before.
This question will be questioned me until I get it right and real.


I am trying to read more about Bible. 
Yes, I think I haven't let my promise to be alive.


I  PROMISE, I WILL PRAY TO THE LORD AND LET HIM TO GIVE ME A RIGHT WAY TO GO.
I HOPE I CAN READ THE BIBLE AND LOVE TO READ BIBLE. 


:D BY: THE little Elisa...